So how does it feel to be a Jackass ?

Its not everyday that you realize what a jackass you are in matters of the heart with close friends and loved ones...

It started 2 weeks back at the hard rock cafe when i was out hanging out with a few friends ... and a very dear friend passed a statement about me.... mentioned in all good intention and taken in the right spirit by me .. Struck a cord with me .. i happened to ask him the next day when i was sober and he told me maybe he didn't use the right words but i knew what he meant ...

Considering the connection i share with him i got a rough idea about the matter ... I gave it a thought realized it but did nothing about it ... until this evening when it was hammered into my head by a chain of events which i never imagined in my wildest dreams would occur ... maybe i should have seen it coming ..

What those events where are little too personal for me to disclose

On my way back home i was putting things together .. a few questions arose in my mind, i called up another friend and asked her ... Although i knew it would push her off the edge.. Its just something i had to get in the clear ..
i got my answers but yet they didn't seem convincing enough...

Took me a couple of weeks of pondering around with my thoughts and conversations with some friends to come to a conclusion

Love is blind.... Friendship tries not to notice...

The Rational behind calling someone a close friend or a loved one is when you let your guard down around them..
and share n care a little more then the average

Events are likely to occur with them just as they would with a normal person with who you may have your guard up against...and there is not much one can do besides take it with a pinch of salt...

In Love or in Friendship being a jackass is but natural ... i have been one for a while and will continue to be for the rest of my life ... choosing not to do so would lead my soul into solitude ... and solitude is a temporary asylum which can never last a lifetime ...

Peace
Timder Da Wolf